nemu lagu di inet. laguna Five, pas di album mereka bubar.. salah satu lagu best dari five.. cekidot!!!

Constantly girl you’re on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I’d feel this way.

If you keep on taking, my heart you’ll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I’m feeling it’s you I believe in baby can’t you see that I need you?

You know that it’s true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it’s you.
I want to let you know you’re driving me crazy.
I’d do anything to help you to see, I don’t think you understand what you’re doing to me.
You know that it’s true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it’s you.
I say a prayer that you’ll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain’t anything alone can’t you see you’re an angel in my eyes,
everyday you’re closer to me.

Nobody’s there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I’d make you see.
That I’m sorry, and that I need you here with me.

Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can’t forget
there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin’ we were set.
Every night when I’m laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I’ve got to do,
It took time but now I’ve realized how much I’m missing you.

hm. hari ini pgn nuangin ap yg ngeganjel di hati g.  mdh2an bkn idup lebih plong. hari ini g bc blog g tmn g, n ngebamlangin crt ttg idup cintana(salud teman!! g baru tau ksh yg ini) yg kgk hepi ending.  well, bgusna d dah brni buat nulis ntu di personal blogna.

g mo mulai drmn yak.  okay.. jd bbrp bulan lalu g tb2 dkt ma seorang ce (g yg brs aj x). hm, actually pd dsrna mang ga ad niad deketin cos mang saat itu lg bnr2 pgn mng lmb. pgn bnr2 latian, palagi saat itu br jg sls sem 8 nan jahanam itu.  awalna sh cm smsan geje2 gt, tp lama2 dah ky addict. tiap ari pst smsan. ya klo g yg mulai, d yg mulai. ptm2 sih g sih cuek, yah lumyn lar ad tmn ngbrol wkt mlm. mpe akir2na addicted lar, ga bisa klo gak hub ma d. 

dr srg smsan ntu, akirna jd sering pegi.  kdg pg ntn ato pg makan, kdg2 jd sk jmpt jg klo d lg pg.. (mulai mrs bgung mo tls ap, kyna bs malu ndiri g).. mang tdna sih biasa aj, krn mang ga ad kpkran jg. pny tmn baik ce, wjar kali yak, soalna di kmps jg ad bbrp tmn baik ce.  mpe satu ari, komsel g ke bandung, n d ikut.. err.. ntah knp g di situ kya orang ga kenal gitu ma d, ngmng cm sptah dua kata.  dah kagok sndiri.. ga tau malu ga tau ap, yg jls kyna mulut speechelss dah. kjdanna lbh baik pas blik dr bndg, cos d dtgl ndri ma bonyokna, jd kudu tgl ndiri.. ga ad yg anter d pg krj, jd g anterin. dammit itu, g dah ky org dodol ato ap gitu.. sng bgt sih, tdr jam brp pun ttp aj dibela2in bgn jam 6 buat nganter.  arrrhhh.. i miss that moment..

bis bbrp wkt bis itu, ntah mengapa g ngerasa kok tb2 menjauh yak. g dah mkn bingung, ap g buat salah.  ap g na yg trl cuek? err.. mkr2, tiap ari mikirin. ato d lg dkt ma org lain. errr tiap ari isi kpla cuma hal2 jelek, negatif thinking n duga2 hal yg ga tau bener pa gak.  karena itu ngejauh?? wew.. akirna g braniin nanya, n jwbanna krn g yang lebih suka diem… err.. mgkn d pkr diem g = jauhin d.. err.. bbrp hr coba buat memperbaiki hub, cb ksh prhatian lagi.. errr.  tp gak tau kyna g ngerasa ga bisa.

g gak tau ap yg g rasain sih.  ap bnr g jd syg ma d? tiap ari kpikiran trus, mpe skrg.. g liad tulisan di blog tmn g, “If loving you means thinking of you all the times then yes, I am in love.”. ya sih, g mang tertarik. banget!!. ya mgkn artina itu kali.. g jg ga tau, err.. yg jls sh skrg i lost her a lot.. skrg dah ga tau mst gmn. g pcy sih kairosna God, is it now?? kyna hati biang gt, tp keadaan nyata bilang gak… d otak g, d dah ma org lain, n g harus mundur! err..

ga tau deh k dpnna gimna. . tiap pagi g doa, n g harap akan ad jwbanna dari God.. g musti kuat skrg, with or without her, my life must go on.  err.. ga tau jg, knp g musti ditulis di blog g jg.  mgkn dgn g nulis, beban g jd ilang. 

Baby, I don’t want to spend my life on trial
For something that I did not do
And maybe if you stopped and looked around some time
I wouldn’t pass right by you

Maybe it’s because you are so insecure
Maybe your pain don’t care
Maybe it’s the chase that really gets me off
I fall so when it’s just not there

Burn another bridge
Break another heart
Try again, it will only fall apart

Infatuation
Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me
It’s such a shame that you shot me down
It would have been nice to be around

I’m touching your skin
If it’s only a fantasy, then why is it killing me?
I guess this must be infatuation

Try to put my finger on what burns me up
It always seems to escape me
And when you have decided that you’ve had enough
Just tell me where I need to be

Now I’m facing something that I’ve never had
To ever deal with before
She left me with the feeling that she’d had enough
And I’m the one wanting more

I’m so attracted to you
The feeling’s mutual too
And I get scared the moment you leave
Get so hot I forget to breathe

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I’m letting go
It may not last but I don’t know
Just don’t know

If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And you show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that’s warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I’m asleep

If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And you show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn’t mean we’re not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Yap!! Event ACM ICPC lagi di Jakarta.  Kali ini diadainnya tanggal 20-21 Oktober 2009 (sama ya ky taun lalu?), tempatna di kampus binus Anggrek-baru (tempat yang mang disiapin buat ACM ICPC).  Tahun ini Site Jakarta didatangin oleh tim-tim luar ky Spore, HK, TW, China, Malaysia.   Dan tim-tim lokalnya.

Peserta tim lokalnya berasal dari 50 tim terbaik yang ikut INC 2009 (Indonesia National Competition 2009).  Jadi sekitar 2 minggu sebelum ACM ICPC Asia Jakarta Regional Contest, tim-tim lokal Indonesia ngadain semacam penyisihan untuk menyeleksi 50 tim terbaik di Indonesia.  Untuk scoreboard selengkapnya ttg INC 2009, bisa diklik di Scoreboard ini.  Untuk soal dan solusinya, masih nunggu versi digital dari soalnya dulu, lupa soalnya kaya ap. hehe.

Saya pun jadi partisipan di ACM ICPC ini.  Tim saya, Ebenhaezer, ada di rank 12 (same rank with last year).  Sangat jauh sekali dengan rank-rank di atas karena jumlah solve saya cuma 3, sedangkan yang lain di atas 3.  Sedikit kecewa, artinya harus lebih baik lagi. 

Tim Ebenhaezer saat Trial Session ACM ICPC 

Untuk scoreboard yg sebelum di freeze, dapat dilihat di link ini.
Untuk scoreboard final, dapat dilihat di link ini.

Saya sangat salut dengan Irvan Jahja, salah satu partisipan dari Dongskar Pedongi.  Ada beberapa prestasi sebelum dia ikut di ICPC, yang menurut saya sangat waw!! Goodluck Irvan, moga-moga bisa ke WF.

Untuk soal-soal di ACM ICPC ini, akan diposting selanjutnya.  Setelah dapet link soalnya. hehe.

God bless U all.

“Cloudy with A Chance of Meat Balls” is a great movie.  Ceritanya cukup simple tapi punya banyak makna. 

Ceritanya ttg seorang yg bernama Flint Lockwood.  Seorang yang termotivasi untuk jadi seorang inventor, tp hasil ciptaannya selalu dicerca oleh orang-orang sekitarnya karena dianggap gagal.  One time, keadaan di kotanya yang hidup dari variasi makanan dari sarden, membuat dirinya ingin menciptakan suatu alat yang dapat memungkinkan menciptakan variasi makanan.  Akhirnya, dia berhasil namun pada akhirnya mesin ciptaannya malah menimbulkan masalah.

 
Hujan Makanan!!!! Makan ato Ketiban??

Banyak makna dari cerita ini. 

• Flint Lockwood seorang yang ga disukai ma orang-orang karena ciptaanya, but he still does the experiment.
• Orang-orang dikota, because of their greediness, mau ini mau itu. akhirnya jadi bencana.
• An heroic figure, seorang polisi (ga tau namanya sapa. hehe).  Help his son, meskipun dah mo kena bencana. leading people around him buad selamatin diri.

I think it’s a good movie. A recommended film.. A must-see film.

Gbu

Waw. Just want to post a few words.  I just remember a conversation from “My Blueberry Night” movie.  My friend told me long time ago, and I just didn’t know what’s the meaning.

Tonight, I am google-ing the subtitle and get the whole conversation.  These are conversation between Jeremy and Lizzie.

Jeremy :
It’s like these pies and cakes.
At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone.
The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished
But there’s always a whole blueberry pie left untouched

Lizzie :
So, what’s wrong with the blueberry pie?

Jeremy :
There’s nothing wrong with the blueberry pie
It’s just people make other choices
You can’t blame the blueberry pie
It’s just no one wants it

It’s like one thing I consider tonight.  That everyone has a lot of options in their life, and they must choose the right one for them.  Even it’s bad or it’s good at the end, you must face it.  It’s the consequences of making decision. 

pernah ngerasa “ngilang”? berada dalam suatu kehidupan, dimana orang-orang gak kenal dengan kita?
I do.  saat udah ngerasa jenuh dengan sesuatu.  Sesuatu yg dilakukan udah ky monoton.  Need time to break.  Intropeksi diri.

Udah lama banget, g gak intropeksi diri.  Saat segalana berjalan seperti seharusnya.  Saat g dah berada dalam zona nyaman g.  Itu kaya ngilangin sesuatu untuk intropeksi. 

Baru-baru ini g ikut lomba. Ketika pergi, dengan sombong mikir kyna pasti menang.  Entah juara berapa pun, pasti menang.  Aplagi taun lalu ad menang juga. After the competition, menang sih menang, tp entah kenapa ngerasa ga damai.  Ternyata dikalahin ma tim yang lebih muda dari tim g.  Degh.. G kaya di”ketok” ma God, karena kesombongan jadinya jato sendiri.  Liat ke belakang lagi, memang sih daya juang kita buat persiapan buad lomba juga kurang.  Makana hasilna kurang memuaskan.  Degh, g jadi mikir.

Beberapa minggu ini juga diuji lagi.  Digeser dari pelayanan.  It’s ok lar klo alasanna bisa terima.  Tp alasannya seperti sedang difitnah. degh, seketika langsung kesel sendiri ma yg nuduh. But, I was trying myself to think positively.  Susah, tp lagi berusaha.  I know I can do that. 

Banyak cobaan dalam beberapa hari belakangan ini.  Ttg pelayanan lar, ttg emosi lar, byk hal.  dan ini membuat g banyak mikir.  How I can respond well?  Respond ke semua masalah itu.  Kadang pengen banget marah2 ke orang, tp kyna dicegah ma God.  Seperti digetok supaya bisa think wisely.  yap, i know kadang2 keceplosan jga.  Ini proses, dan g sadar itu.  G jadi inget beberapa bulan yang lalu, minta ma God buat jadikan g “dewasa”.  Yap, kyna itu sedang diproses ma God. Thx God.

Hal-hal ini yg bikin g pengen banget “ngilang”.  Pengen banget intropeksi diri.
Apalagi beberapa hari ke deapan bakalan ICPC. mo konsentrasi.
Let’s see lar ap bisa dilakukan. 

Lanjut thesis euy. bisa dibantai pembimbing ini. haha.
Gbu

Yesterday, I was too tired.  I faced an online competition, The INC 2009.  From my last post, I wrote that I was alone for doing this comp.  But, didn’t know it’s miracle or not, my friends came and three of us did the competition. hehe.

The comp was started at 1 PM and ended at 4.. There were 6 probs (I think the problemsetters will post the link of the probs).  There’re nothing i could tell, because we’re too focus on the probs, and I forget what happened there. hehe..

Hm.. udah lar, stop berbahasa inggris.. haha..
g tau pasti byk yg salah, tp lumayan 2 paragraphs..

Selesai lomba itu jam 4an, dan setelah berbincang2 bentar kita turun ke lantai 1.  Rencananya sih mo makan, tp tiba2 udah mo mendung. haizz.. ya dah, pada batal. pada pulang.. akhirna g cuma makan di warteg, n jalan lagi ke Puri.

@puri, tempat yg dah lama ga pegi.  Tempat yg paling g inget di situ adalah Hanamasa, dimana g di”rampok” di situ.  Dan 1 tempat lagi, depan foodcourt.  Inget ma ultah Lidya (salud buad LIdya, berhasil kumpulin anak2 1 kelas pegi bareng).  haha. ga gitu inget ke puri ngapain, setelah itu.. next dest, Annex Building .

di Annex Building (Thamrin) ada gereja yg namanya JPCC.  dah bbrp kali g ke sana, dan di sana bisa pulang dapetin sesuatu deh.  makana, klo bisa dateng, harus dateng ke sana.

Sneak Peek “A Heart For You” Concert
G ada di sana tuhhh!!!!

Malemna di sana ada konser TW “A Heart For You”.  It’s a acoustic concert.  Konserna ada di lantai 12, dari jam 7an aj, dah panjang banget antrian buad masuk konsernya.  G dateng agak telad sih, udah masuk.  Dan cuma dpt tempat di belakang.  Memang sih di konser yg ini, gak banyak lagu barunya.  lagu-lagu ky Terbang, Selidiki Aku, Shine Like Star, dll dinyanyiin ulang dan diaransemen lagi dgn musik2 akustik.  Two thumbs up deh selalu buad TW!! Waiting for the next live recoding ^^

Malamnya gua pulang, n nyampe di Mangdu.  Makan dulu, ga berasa dari jam 5 sore gak makan.  Nyampe sana jam 11 malem.. makjang!! Bis kenyang makan, balik rumah.  Kaget!! Shock!! Goyang!! yap, sampe rumah jam tengah atu.  bah.. luar biasa tuh malem. kuar rumah dari jam 12 siang – tengah atu malem = 12.5 jam. wonderful!!

Cukup lar cuap2na. . Besok pagi mo ke Bandung, dan g blom Packing. selain sikat gigi, semua masih rapih di tempatna. haha.

Gbu

A great song from Khalil Fong. 
Thanks to my friend for recommending me this song.

I wrote this song it’s not too long
cause ‘ I’ve been thinking ’bout you
I wrote this song maybe I’m wrong
To be caught up about you

Well I don’t know what you think ’bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see

Oh it’s a sing a long song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing a long maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

I wrote this song it’s not too long
Cos’ I’m the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can’t be wrong
I don’t wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you’re meant to be
forever and a day with me

Oh it’s a sing a long song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing a long maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

In everyway you mean more to me
than you’ll ever know
girl I’ll do my best to show these words are true
and if you’d like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
I’d find the greatest words sing
so we could write our own romance

Oh it’s a sing a long song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing a long maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

Oh it’s a sing a long song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing a long maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you